i'm done i'm done i'm done

handed in my thesis today but i dont feel as happy as i should. hasnt sunk in yet i suppose. its kinda weird being this free with nothing to do.
now it's the waiting part. please let me get accepted into some uni. i dont care which one.. just any one.

i'm going to sydney on thurs for 4 days. cant wait!! i'm gonna shop and eat.

so my 4th yr is done.. a yr full of crappy supervisors, stupid workload and sleep deprivation (especially in the past few weeks). it's over!

and i'm super sleepy today. had abt 4 hrs of sleep coz i was still editing my discussion section at 1pm today. i rewrote the whole section last night coz apparently my hypotheses cannot be answered coz the intervention didnt work. bloody fuck

 ahhhh... i'm so stressed!!!

my intervention did not work so i have to write a reason for it in my thesis which ive only done the method section. all my friends are practically done with theirs.. oh and my lit review? my supervisor had loads of problems with it.. i'm so dead.. plus placement report due next friday. i'm ready to jump off a building.. oh and my exam is this friday


16th nov.. please come quick.. i want everything to be over and done with. so sick of 4th year.. 

and please please let me get into a uni next year for masters.. preferably one in Victoria..

roses are red
violets are blue
fuck you whore


awesome show, 500 days of summer. lots of good quotes. very quirky and cute.

everyone go watch it. quick.

ps: how good is muse's new album?

 is it mean/evil of me to be happy when i hear that one of my friends/ acquaintances tell me that they are not planning to continue with psych next year? my first thought is always " yay one more free spot open"


anyways i'm turning 21 soon. god.. i'm old

and i'm gonna be so busy for the next 8 weeks. monday placement, tuesday wed thurs and friday go to participant's house to conduct intervention. plus uni on tues and fri. and i have to continue writing my lit review and report. and got an essay due next week, a presentation on wk 9 and 12. blearghhh  

 i am so beyond tired.. clubbing 2 nights in a row is bad. 

went to eve on friday so that was asian night. had a house party last night with mostly white ppl and ended up at red violin. 2 totally different nights with different crowds.

oh and shalini got us kicked out of red violin for being too drunk. my first time ever getting kicked out of a club.. i fear bouncers now. especially old indian ones who are unreasonable. 

i should start writing my research report and the 2nd draft of the lit review.

edit: oh ya shalini also fucking puked on my carpet

 ARGGHHH!!! i have to do my lit review but i'm stuck.. of all thing i'm stuck at the definition part. who knew that defining autism is so difficult.

and i told myself that i'll get it done by the 10th which is tmr but nooooo.. i only started today and have a grand total of 77 words out of 5000!!

great. just great.

anyway, i was in KL during the weekend and this is what i found out:

1) shoes in KL are CHEAP. i bought a total of 3 pairs. would have bought more if there were nicer ones
2) food is CHEAP. i ate so damn much it's not funny. i was always hungry
3) people there are NOT friendly. seriously. they dont smile at all. how do they expect to attract customers to their shop if the salesgirls do not smile?


ook.. back to lit review

i should really be doing my assignment that is due TOMORROW now.

but instead what am i doing? i'm reading up on Merlin and the Arthurian legends even though i already know most of it and it does not help my assignment or my studies in any way. i'm gonna start watching Merlin the series- am downloading the first episode now- and Greek. i;ve watched the first 2 episodes and it;s quite good

and i just realised that most shows that i like are being canceled. ok fine i know they are mostly mindless ones such as cupid and reaper but hey i need some mindless tv series to watch in my free time. oh well at least i know that merlin will be coming back for a second season. but seriously how can they cancel life and life on mars???!! they're both really good shows that are totally not mindless or bimbotic. you know what they should cancel? scrubs. it's one of my favourite shows on tv but i think it's been too long and really, scrubs will not be the same without zach braff and some other characters.

ok enough with my ramblings about tv series. did i just write a whole paragraph long about that? gosh. i really have no life apart from watching tv. now.. if only this psych report is as easy as writing an entry for my blog. 

ps: everyone should listen to mandy moore's newest album, amanda leigh. it's really good and it's been playing on loop on my itunes for the past few days

i just realised that whenever i'm stressed i clean my house.. yep.. that's right. i CLEAN!!!

i came to this realisation when i was cleaning my toilet instead of doing my work.. i just had the urge to clean all of a sudden.

so this week is another busy week for me.. i totally underestimated my busy-ness

and i've not started on my psych assessment report.. crap crap crap.. plus i'm gonna be in uni for a very long time tmr. eghhh

i need a break.. i want exams and everything else to be done

so this is what happened to me today in a span of 5mins while walking down just a block along swanston street to get home..

1. random guy walking towards me says hello
2. few seconds later, a group of 2 guys and girl walks by and one of them took my photo. yup.. just randomly took a shot of me walking by and the other guy said to me: "I'm a serious booty hunter now"


like wtf.. i think attract weird ppl

oooohhh.. my layout has changed.. niceee.. thanks siti


anyways.. easter break is here but what break? i'm sooo damn busy.. i;ve got to prepare a presentation that's due on next friday but i have to present it to my supervisor first this coming thurs. stupid monash.. why do they need to have a presentation.. it's not even marked!! they just give you satisfactory or unsatisfactory. and i have to present my research proposal in front of 50+ people.. crap and it includes 3 psychologists who are "experts" in the topic. it's 15 min presentation plus a 5 min DISCUSSION and question time!!! omg omg omg.. just thinking abt it makes me feel sick.

and i've got an essay due next thurs.. no more last minute essay doing for me anymore.. i plan to start on it this thurs.. see 1 week before instead of 3 days or 1 day.. and i'm gonna use my weekend to do my essay.

fourth year is stressful.. i want it over and done with

it's only the first week of uni and i'm already exhausted and overwhelmed.. damn fourth yr.

i've got a presentation on wed and my placement officially starts on tues from 10-4 and the lady seems kinda scary. i met her today and i was 10mins late (stupid trams). so anyway i met her and she didnt look happy.. that's not good at all and she asked me if i;ve watched the devil wears prada and she referred to herself as the devil.. oh god.. please let her be nice and not horrible.. i have to be there on placement for 30 days- once a week.. that means 30 WEEKS!!!

i'm so not ready for uni to start even though it has started. ok that does not really make sense.. so not ready for 4th yr psych

so i found out 2 days ago that i'm allergic to doxycyline- my acne med.

apparently when you take this medicine, you must avoid sunlight which is close to impossible in spore. so right now i look like a lobster. i'm itching all over. and clever me went swimming yest.. so instead of having a tan lines which are brown, i'm red all over. i went to the doctor yest and received a jab.. i was never ever so glad in my life to get an injection. it didnt help though.. i was scratching all over last night and coulnt sleep.

i hope it goes away soon. it's really irritating. plus looking like a lobster is not good

happy new year ppl

dont you think that the yr has gone by really fast this time round?

omg omg omg... i got a full offer for postgraduate dip in psych in monash!!!!! OMG OMG OMG

and i did't even meet the requirement for my conditional offer.. i got an average of 69.25 and my conditional offer was 71%..
yay!! this means i dont have to go to another state or uni.. i get to stay in monash!!!

by the way i'm back in spore now

i'm going to gold coast!! such an impromptu thing but it's confirmed. i'm leaving this sat for 4 days.

gonna be shit broke afterwards though

so my exams are over and i'm bored.. for the first time in forever i'm not going back home right after exams. instead i'm staying here until dec..

i should really start cleaning up my place and put my books away

i need to shop real bad

why? why did i choose psych as my major??? why could i just have taken some stupid business degree that doesnt need an honour/4th yr to actually get a job??? oh wait i know why.. coz i cant seem to do any business subjects at all

arghh.. statistics is killing me.. i'm so sick of regression, anova and shit.. 

stupid psych degree.. it;s not as easy as it sounds. i bet half the ppl who take psych go crazy studying stats

i'm so stressed out!!! exams are in a week- less actually. 6 days! and i havent gotten around to studying. my final assignment ended on wed. and then after that my computer sort of crashed.. it almost did.. i found out that my antivirus software sucked and had to download another one which told me that my computer was infected with viruses. tons of them.

oh and i had to reboot my thumbdrive.. everything is gone froom there.. luckily i've handed in all my assignments. phew.

honours/postgrad diploma application is troublesome. i'm applying to everywhere.. and i mean everywhere seriously.. all across the country except for sydney. for some reason i dont like sydney.. let's all cross our fingers and pray i get into 4th year

it's 4.22 in the morning and what am i doing? my lab report. it's due on wed but i'm trying to write as much as possible coz i've also got a mid sem exam on the same day.

so tmr i have to study for the mid sem and finish off the lab report.. gosh what a way to spend my birthday.. this is pathetic.. doing assignment and studying on my birthday..

anyways, i FEEL OLD!!! two decades on earth. no more teens.. gosh..

i managed to not think abt it for TWO weeks.. two weeks of not thinking abt popping into borders after sch and buying the book.
despite all the reviews and publicity the book has been getting i held on for two weeks.. until friday. i went into borders and couldnt help myself.

saw the book. touched it and told myself  'no.. not gonna get it' but i did. shouldnt have read the first page.

by the way the book is breaking dawn by stephenie meyer. it's the fourth book of the twilight saga. the series that ppl have been comparing to harry potter. both genres are fantasy but you cant compare harry potter to twilight. they're just too different.

anyway. i bought the book, read it and now it's done.. i can get back to doing my assignments again.. if i can stop watching olympics. i;ve watched so many events it's insane

i bought a new portable heater.. no more freezing to death and wearing hoods at home.. yes i actually wore the hood on my jumper coz i was that cold